Well that stupid, is me.

Writing this post, = dare to tell it out, but definitely not to you. 

Friends who knows that I had feeling for him, been telling me just tell him! blah blah blah... You think easy ah? He'd for sure think I'm like some crazy ass girl who he has never met before suddenly tell him that "I like you" and stuff. -_-

Plus point, I + him, are not close at all. This is darn ridiculous I know.

For me, I can say that I don't fall easily for a person, maybe infatuation (in real life) yes, which really comes into 1-2 times since the day I told myself that, "this is not gonna work, like literally won't work between me + him". But ended up, these infatuation will end at one point. And I'd realized that I still think of him most of the time, until now, ever since almost 2 year's I've known him through an online game. Actually myself, doesn't know what I liked about him much, is just that maybe somehow he's personality attracts me. If were to say whether he's oh-damn-handsome just like Joshua Bowman? I would probably say not really, just average, or maybe not bad. But buff for sure :p 

Last weekend, I met few guys in zouk, they were from SG as well. All of them were actually not bad looking, to be honest, but I do agree maybe because most SG guys are super good looking due to that they do know how to dress up well. That what I like in SG guys. So I was dancing w/ this one guy all night long. Feeling? I won't say that I like him, cause I just met him! and I repeat, I don't fall for a person easily. It was really fun meeting them anyways. And that guy thought I was a Singaporean as well cause I know much about SG. lolol I'm flattered by it anyways. :p 

So what hit my mind was, him again. I don't know why my mind would lead to some stupid dream like, "Oh! How good if that guy were him" and stuffs like that. My problem is, when I'm about to give up or maybe had given up, that little small tiny interaction on social media, sparkle up that feeling back. I hate myself. ._.

"A guy who likes your photos on social media most of the time, doesn't mean he likes you." that feeling when your crush likes your photos k! These little single thing I tend to take it seriously/exaggerate ya know. 

"Boy, you should stop doing it to let me not fell deeper into the hole." 

But can't he be like hinted that I had of a interest in him, which I think he'd most probably know about it because there's one time the bubble almost burst, or maybe did burst. Why. are. you. still. doing. this. to. me. )':

I think I know that he's not that interested in me lah. Kind of proven though. I put my guts to interact more but seems to fail. Or maybe he's gay (which I keep telling myself too, that most probably he's a gay) lol. Anyway, yes! Please stop doing all the little things such as the likes and all. Go away :/ , if you're not interested in me, stop confusing me that you might had, even a little.

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